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9/26 Melissa – stop with the sneaky sabotage….my media is to protect me…does it need to go back up?!? What are you trying to accomplish? YOU HAVE TO REPORT BACK AN ACTION PLAN OTHERWISE I’M GOING AHEAD WITH THE PLAN WE SPOKE OF….Read…

Hi Melissa,

I honestly am very sorry. I couldn’t avoid freaking out because we just can’t go back to square one. Trust me on this. We just need to have something that works. I am open to suggestions. If I am doing something wrong, just tell me. I’ll explain why this is not helpful for either of us…example number one- Diego’s attack. I’ll get back to this.

Maybe I misunderstood exactly what you meant. I thought you intended to back to our Mexican standoff. It’s very important that you know I see you as a very serious threat to me. That side of the story is extremely complicated and stressful. I just don’t want to go back to being forced to live in fear. That note abruptly ended my 5 week stretch of newfound happiness that all of this would soon be over.

If you hadn’t caught on..I follow rules for communicating to you. I try never to say mean things, to be supportive, to avoid the blame game, etc. I have very conflicted feelings that I suppress, but sometimes frustration boils over, and I am sorry. I am trying to address the side of you that is thoughtful, smart and nice. I know that you would prefer to be isolated right now and we were working in that direction, but we obviously encountered a stumbling block very specifically because of our resolution NOT to respond to the stolen videos.

I understand why you have reservations to stand by my very serious response. The blog I wrote was chemotherapy…very destructive…to the CULT. Melissa, I didn’t post that because that was the “friends” thing to do. I had every right to post that in spite of your objections because it is very true. Obviously that move was a display of faith and trust. If we don’t address the video, the alternative is that you quietly have my back. That explains the change in tone that my letter writing took….trying to culture enough trust to eventually talk about this. You are asking to have it both ways….Melissa we have to find a middle road.

Do you realize why my media is very loud in the first place? It is to expose them and hold them accountable…but also very strongly to protect me from YOU. If you are positioning yourself for more attacks…they have got to go back up. If Filipe is manipulating you to attack me…explain to that file person why that is not a very good idea.

I am very passionate about my life, story and purpose. We don’t live forever, after all. You have all day to do whatever you do. I work, so my time is very precious.  I have worked incredibly hard and dilligently to help shape a proper and truthful ending to our extremely ugly story. Yes, I know, this is not a story but our lives. Yes, you came home, and we finally sort of made our peace. That was part of the proper ending. Unfortunately it really didn’t turn out to be that cut and dried. I try to spare you of how I REALLY feel. That’s why I talk to you, because in finding that peace, there’s no need for all of those bitter words and feelings.

There’s another rule that I try to follow. In spite of my feelings I don’t threaten to throw you in the dark. You need to acknowledge if this is all about Diego’s destructiveness, he wins if we break…period. I am extremely passionate about what happened…righting the wrongs, seeking justice, exposing the corrupt, contrasting the best in people to the very worst… I really look forward to writing this book. If you knew my life, it would be obvious to you too why I should write it.

Melissa, we need to make a choice, address the stolen video, or continue our attempts to be diplomatic as this story winds down. I don’t have all of the answers, I just know that we can’t go back to fighting…because that image of us is a complete lie that was forced upon us….and I will never accept it. That would be tolerating abuse. Melissa…when we took our blogs down, it was obvious to Diego that we were coordinating and ended our fight. The videos appeared a few days later because he wanted us to start the fighting again…and reclaim his win. It is very obvious. He spent 5 years with the express mission of destroying us both. By us ending our fight we effectively cut off his dick. It’s really that simple.

Your healing is very important too. I caution you from allowing Felipe from having to much influence on you over this…until you figure out what he is really up to. I think I’ve written before that you have some responsibility to come clean to more people that I was the good guy throughout this and acknowledge that you have been absolved from your involvement in the cult smear campaign….to accept the narrative that you weren’t an accomplice. THE PURPOSE OF THIS is to reduce my risk of danger and  the minimization of the potential risk for you to be manipulated to attack me again. It should be a line that people are not able to cross…hold your ground. Maybe you don’t entirely agree with that, maybe that’s another need to work some things out. I hope you aren’t upset by my very strong dislike of Felipe. I am extremely uncomfortable that he is intentionally invading spaces that are within my circles. It was an extremely bad idea to bring that infection anywhere near here. Don’t allow him to break your heart. Just play it safe. Be warned he has expressed agreement to the concept of hitting a woman back. I am serious. That’s the depth of his cold arrogance and stupidity.I am sorry, but do you have any friends who are looking out for you like I am?  Please don’t blame me for feeling strongly against his behavior.

I am very very serious why I consider you a threat and you kind of missed the opportunity we had to talk about this. To reassure me against continued attacks. I don’t want to list why…that would be breaking the no blame game rule. But I will say that at least I always try to warn you before I take an action.

Every once in a while there is an uptick in EOF activity on my page, and there is reason to think that you are still coordinating with Jessica. I feel the person who stalked us from Bangkok should try to be identified for security reasons. Every time I see this activity it generally means something us up….especially when Deb checks in…so I often wonder what is happening behind the scenes. There has definitely been an uptick in the hunt for information specifically related to you. I haven’t checked the EOF page in a few weeks. He writes way to many blog posts and I am so busy as it is.

I am working 50 hours….I am so behind in my projects. I am super excited for hoversled and the additions and improvements.

I am sorry that I “inconvenience” you from time to time but the damages to my life have been measurably severe. This years the EOF probably cost me $3000 for missed work, the damage and delays to the Hoversled once projected out will probably be in the millions. I am not joking.

So, conclusion. We have to make a decision of what to do about the video. These are words that came from your mouth if you didn’t want anything to do with it, you shouldn’t have participated in the smear campaign in the first place. As I said, I want you to be absolved of blame but that requires that we agree on a plan. If you make the video disappear somehow, we don’t really have much to talk about until my book comes out and I want to have your blessing as to its content.

Dont try to shape this thing about “harrassment” when it has throughout been about diplomacy…and malicious libel is certainly the most insideous form of Harrsment….or attempt to silence.

Are you saying you need some space? If so, do you understand my dilema? The video has to be addressed or we have each other’s backs. I need to have your input. Can you understand?

We can’t go back to playing the “I don’t even know if you got the message” game. Some times my notes are blablabla…but also at times critically important. This post isn’t even password protected because I don’t know if you remember the password. Just another reason we can’t go back until we are free and clear of each other’s lives.

I am trying to be nice…but you are responsible for the content of that video.





March, 2016


Hi my name is Steven Sohlstrom and I writing this to address a group (identity of which is not known to me) that took interest in the ongoing saga between myself and the end of fear organization. Apparently, a debate was sparked by the film which I made to expose what Jessica and Diego did to Melissa and I. A healthy debate is always a good thing when arriving at an objective opinion when sorting out the truth. As a person with a journalism and news background, I both respect and encourage such debate. I am unaware of the identity of this group and blind to any ongoing discussion. I can be contacted directly. I stand behind the film I made.

Unfortunately, the rebuttal to my film is not a private apology by the eof, or acceptance of accountability, but a very public smear campaign. Going beyond that, lives are being hurt, reputations damaged, and finances obliterated in the continuing “puppetry” that continues to distract from an ever expanding crime of exploitation. My wish to the sympathisers of the EOF is to demand that it stop. My film is real, I stand behind it and I also stand against the continuing victimization of Melissa who will be fortunate if she even has enough money left to find her way back to the United States, or ever even to get word that she is still loved and supported back home. The most important factor is always Melissa’s safety.

In the midst of this, I am thankful for the great amount of empathy expressed for our story, as well as the public affirmation that the eof has a definite pattern in the human wreckage they leave behind. I know this from close insiders and even Jessica’s ex. However, I am also concerned that in many instances, the smear campaign deflects from the very simple fact that our story is real, and can never be excused by a campaign to “embarrass” the victims involved. Melissa and I were very greatly effected by the trauma of physical and emotional abuse that was imposed on us by Jessica and Diego. I have volunteered a lot of very personal and painful information which the public was never entitled to know. I have stated that the events which have harmed me not only happened well after the EOF assumed full and direct control of Melissa’s life, but that each instance was directly related to specific and vicious attacks that were made to deflect my efforts to empower her safe return. It has been a very ugly and costly battle. It has been fought in the name of unconditional love and human value.


The insidious accusations they made in an effort to silence me were completely dismissed in the court of law, and I emerged an advocate for victims of domestic abuse. My deliberate mischaracterization by the EOF is incredibly hypocritical and shameful in a world where victims of domestic violence are very real and the crime no laughing matter. It is very well known to everyone in our families that I was a victim of repeated and increasing domestic abuse. Melissa is forgiven unconditionally and is not to blame as the lies and secrets Jessica and Diego were force-feeding her weekly completely overwhelmed her emotionally. She could never explain to me what was happening to her because Jessica and Diego demanded secrecy. She was sucked into a myth that I can’t help but suspect they still trap her in today by anger and guilt…it is crucial that she understands she is not to blame. The very idea that it is impossible for her to come back is an easy sell…but that is a terrible and abusive lie. I still love you dear. I could not have possibly abandoned you knowing what I knew.

It might be an obvious mistep by the EOF that she is exploited in this regard as a weapon to deter the truth and it is a huge betrayal to Melissa on their behalf. If you are reading this you may be very well aware of her full identity. Jessica and Diego are notorious for giving the worst imaginable advice….they are not thinking of her, they are thinking of themselves and their pocketbooks.

One of the main contributors to the insanity to our story is the absence of dialogue between Melissa and I. For better or worse, that is a major contributor to how this story has continued. Information is power. You cannot control a person without control their freedom to communicate. That’s brainwashing 101. There are a lot of theories that might explain how/why this has occurred, but they simply aren’t answerable until Melissa and I eventually communicate. There is a game at foot that the EOF can simply manipulate Melissa to refute our story. (Ironically because of this one way flow of lies from multiple sources, Melissa couldn’t possibly even know that she is reinforcing a completely  false narrative and her own disempowerment. She has become the “pawn of choice” in many different occasions and it is demeaning.  I’m not even certain if this trauma has become real in her mind or no or weather it will leave an insurmountable scar. To the public who are rightly incensed by the ugly truth that our abuse was motivated mostly by greed, there will never be justification for how she was taken advantage of or how my life was harmed in the process. The only way to rebuild as victims is to bravely tell or story and LOUDLY at that! There are others that may wonder whether or not she has ever been released from their emotional control. Content in her life at the moment or not, it doesn’t justify her exploitation, and the script may quickly flip when she suddenly runs out of money or becomes aware and conscious of their deliberate betrayal. (Update: This prediction proved quite accurate in 2/2018) This story may be far from over but hopefully she comes home soon.

For those of you who appreciate the love story and the show of undaunted support of Melissa, particularly in the situation of being unable to assess her safety, and all of the sacrifice involved, a true hero has emerged as a result of their ugly and sophomoric attacks. Sorry if that hurts a little Diego, but heroes are born of action, the choices they make, and the sacrifice and persecution they endure without compromise. She told me that “I was her Jack”…and that proved an accurate prediction as  well but I would have preferred the  Icy Atlantic over what I ended up facing….I never invited Diego to be a part of my life story. Melissa could have warned him that he was dealing with a very principled, accomplished, and tenacious person. She certainly tried very hard to warn him that we were unbreakably in love and he refused to respect that. As stated in the film…it became about submission. They became relentless. She could have also warned him that we both agreed that there was something very uncommon and serendipitous about our love. We were a perfect pairing in every way we could think of…perfect balance…selfless and complete in our commitment to one another. A perfectly reinforcing relationship with little to no disagreement for what we wanted together for out futures. We never bored of one another’s company and there was never mistrust of insecurity…(at least before the EOF became the “third partner”  in the relationship as  she warned me of that potential problem) We laughed and held each other continually. We each gave continually and wholeheartedly to one another and we understood one another. The lies and the myths the eof still use to string her along to her doom could never possibly change that.

Melissa has done so much damage to the EOF by promoting our story I am apt to be quiet and just let her do her thing. Maybe it is her revenge for what they have done.  …well dear, empower yourself but be careful. Take any opportunity you can to get away. Don’t fall into the hands of other predators who may be waiting to take advantage of you again. Don’t play yourself as a victim. Be proud and strong if you can say you are a survivor.

I can’t help but have confidence in the public’s ability to spot a clear motive by the eof to bury the truth and twist a trail of deception until there becomes an end to her usefulness. I appeal to the public sensibility to help everyone find a satisfactory resolution with the respect for Melissa’s well being and safety. I encourage the public to not tolerate her further abuse and give her unconditional support and encouragement to come home. Do not buy into the charade. Ask questions, demand answers…and the truth.

How do we move forward? That was only ever for Melissa and Steven to decide together. Not Jessica and Diego.

Steven Sohlstrom

(Mielcita – si eso leas, llamame tan pronto como possible 8/17/17)

The great lie that our relationship was abusive was ever only a hipocritical outrage.

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